Forever and a day.

If one day, you see me with another boy, don't be sad. Remember, you were the one who left me. I never wanted to leave.

Kay hi. I'm back here again. I just finished my lunch and I'm still using itouch to type this FYI. I'm trying to prevent myself from staying in front of the computer screen for too long. Gah. Oh yea. I was reading wanting's blog just now. She blogged about me, omg shy. Hahaha. Andddd, wanting is a bitch, therefore she is a bitch. :) I know you love me. I taught you how to walk home at 8pm. It's not even dark lah. Ahyo. She was afraid to walk home alone! :/

Anyway, I'm going to make sure my Amath results jump from a F9 to a A1. I believe in me. Yay. I can't wait for O levels. I love studying. Enjoy it like omg. OH and when Mr Chan returns me my O levels results, I'm gonna make him realize I'm not just some lazy girl who sleeps in class all the time. I'm gonna make him wonder how the hell can a person do well even though she doesn't listen in class. Kay, I need to start with Amath, then SS and Hist, then Chemistry, and lastly Phys. I hope I can manage.

How the hell did Ted get 8 points for his prelim? Gosh. I'll be satisfied with a 12. Like real. I did damn badly for prelims. Need to plan my time well. Ugh. I did lotsa studying yesterday night with koji at coffee bean. Need to do that again.

Riding solo.

Hey yo. Alright. So I managed to get the mc for yesterday. Polyclinic was closed by the time I reached there. Ugh. So I went to the clinic at the train station. Woah. The doctor was super nice. He understood that I just needed a mc only. He even asked if I want 3 days mc. Woooohoo. Sadly, I said no. :/ aw well. I'm going night study today again. I really cannot study at home with all my family around. Such a nuisance. Ugh. Aw well. Night study clashes with both my tuitions. -.- I guess I'll skip it today then. Today's amath paper was not bad. Consideing The fact that I managed to complete a lot of questions although usually I'll just sleep. Lost 40 marks though. Means I'll confirm fail anyway. :/ Kay, I'm like eating lunch and typing this with my itouch. This is what I call devotion. Lol. WTF. K I'm out. Bye.

Every long lost dream.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

LESS THAN THREE.

I never knew I could hurt like this.

Miss you but I try not to cry.

Fuck man. I skipped school today. Meaning I skipped EL P2 and Maths P2. Great. I have to go see doctor like soon. Hope the polyclinic won't be so crowded. And hope they'll give me MC. I'll say I had headache or something. Fuck lah. I think my O levels cannot make it. I'm gonna retain. Fuck.

I'm damn fucked up now. A Maths paper tml. FUCK IT. -'-

Gotta let go.

I throw my hands up in the air and sometimes. Saying AYYOOOO, gotta let go. Okay, that song's stuck in my head now. Nonstop replay mode. :/ and its that line only. Ugh. I reached home not long ago, just showered and had my lunch. I have to meet Wanting in 1 hour + 2 minutes time. I'm so gonna be late. Tuition ends at 7:30. I've decided that I'll go for night study right after tuition. See my mood! If Wanting can accompany me till later, maybe I'll skip! :) Tuition starts early today. Zzzz. Okay, I gotta rush now. Pack my notes and stuff. I HAVEN'T DONE TUITION HOMEWORK. Oh yeah, SOOOO gonna flunk today's Hist and E Maths P1. I didn't do the Hist at all. Only did 1 source base question. And, I lost 17 marks for Maths cause I didn't bring ruler and protractor. What is wrong with me. DAMN. After typing this paragraph, I have only 1 more hour. BYE.

"This is for my peoples who just lost somebody."

Sigh. At least I know I'll be able to sleep tonight. Oh yea btw, I love and miss this place. Best place to go when you're feeling down. Seriously.

Anyway, I had lunch with Daren at Mos Burger just now. Played itouch and hogged the best seats there for really really long. Everyone who walked past gave as the get-out-of-here face. Aw well. We completed the Impossible Test. Yay. We're super. Oh, halfway through, the guys from class came to Mos as well. But they sat outside in the hot hot sun!

Cadbury, phantom, fuji apple, pink dolphin, less than three.

I come up with the coolest names, don't I?

Dear chindian, remember who's curry? ;);)

Alright, I'm so prepared to flunk tomorrow's papers. I'm not even sure if I can stay for the night study. I have A Maths tuition up till 7:30 pm. Hmmmmmm. See how. I'll ask someone about it later. So irritated. Ugh.

I didn't sleep for the whole night last night. Ugh, ugh, ugh, UGH, UGHHG@U!HJ##&(*@!^#*(!9012)_#@!)_@. Fuck it, I'm so sleepy now. My hand is bleeding. Almost got killed by that taxi cause I didn't look out for traffic. Wtf. And I dropped my NEW water bottle. And it broke. Fuck it. Seriously, FML. Dinner now.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE NOW.
FUCK IT.

Ate my heart.

Omg omg, amanda took this photo and I didn't realize. @$%^ It has been in my phone since forever and I didn't know until now. :/ Can't see my eyes. Ugh. Anyway, I think I have insomnia. I don't force myself to stay awake or what, I just really cannot sleep. Last night, I went to bed at 2 am last night, but I only managed to fall asleep at 4:30 am. Fabbbbb. A lot was revolving around my mind. I was dead tired, but my eyes just won't shut. Every time I shut them, images appear out of no where. Gah. And of cause, I was reminiscing a lot of nonsense. Cadbury. Even though its 2 years ago, I still wonder how would my life be if we didn't leave each other. Well. What the heck right. He's attached already. Probably living a perfect life.

To : You. You're everything I never thought you were.
K whatever, you can die now. I really regret ever knowing you.
Really really. You're such a liar. Two faced as well.

but, its okay, I still love you. sigh.

hope that it will give you hell.

changed theme + added steampad music.

I was tumblr hopping and I found something super awesome.

THIS IS SO COOL. ♥

Whatever, anything, coke zero, pepsi light.

(I dug this picture out from heaven knows how long ago.) When I said "I have a habit of sleeping at 5am" in the previous post, yesterday night was an exception. I slept at 10am this morning. And I just woke up around 4 plus. I didn't eat since yesterday 5pm until today. Thats like 24 hours without food. Does it still count? Will I lose weight? Heh. I don't know. I feel as though this is my minimum weight already, and I can't get any thinner. Terrible horrible vegetable. I'm still so damn sleepy. I'm going town shopping tomorrow. No one's going to stop me. Oh, I realized another thing about myself. I seldom take my own advices, neither do I take other people's advice. My mind has a life of it's own. I can't control it. Same with my heart. Ahhh, whatever. Heart is dead anyway.

Break away.

I have a habit of sleeping at 5am these few days. Anyway, I was reading through her blog and I realized, she reminds me so much about me. Her blog posts are a reflection of everything I want to say, but never really had the guts to. Maybe bcause I once told my love all my deepest emotions/fear, but in the end, he still decided to leave. Remember this, don't ever forget it, people leave. Everybody will eventually leave. Don't rely too much on somebody. We're still young. Love isn't everything in life. Let experiences make you stronger. It doesn't kill you. And what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

Oh btw, the "she" that I was referring to is Lia.

Hectic mess.

Everything now is crazy. I trust nobody. Seriously. I just reached home not long ago. Managed to catch the last train and the last bus home.

I think right now, I look like the above picture. Dead tired and worn out. Seriously.

Oh yea, btw, I can read through you like a book you know? All your awkwardness and everything. There's nothing to hide.

Oh, and fuck that guy who has a perv face. I've been thinking about that a lot. Has been bugging me for forever. I think I found out you ulterior motive already. Really, every time I think about it, my mood just gets damn dampened. Go flirt with your girls.

And secondly, fuck that other guy who thinks he's just so handsome. Dude, you did not spend 300 bucks on me. You don't need to tell everyone those lies. Really. Wth.

So many friggin things. Damn it. Mind is gonna explode. Bye.

I wanna give all my secrets away.

♥ : oyj

I wanna tattoo your name under my belly button. Woohoo. ;)

gonna let this blog go dead. so damn lazy to make proper updates.

- tuition was horrible.

I'm not stupid, I know what you're doing girl.

♥ : oyj.

sick and tired of this life.

Knocks you down.

I'm going out now. Bye bye. Starvingggg~~

♥ : oyj.

You know, I realized why I enjoy blog hopping. I read all the emotional things that people go through. And I'm like. Hey, thats what I'm going through. I like knowing that I'm not the only one going through this shit. I'm not the only one who's feeling this way. Not the only one like this. There's a hundred other people who cry themselves to sleep every night. Many other people who hurt inside from loneliness.